Biyo

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slightly stressed lately.
i think it's the job search and new studio project.
why in the world did they have to begin a 3-4 week project now? >.<
kinda wish the beginning project was the shorter one, cuz the end of the year really is just a stressful time.

and job hunting is awful.
waiting for e-mail responses, calling people....  >.<
not anything up my alley. *sigh*

i just really want to take a month off.
to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

YES!! spring break!! X3

been kicking back and relaxing for almost... too long now ^^
i love home haha.

a little afraid of what'll happen after the break o.o
6 more weeks?
oh no. >.<

just had a phone conversation with my roomie.
she's had two interviews now..
and it makes me realize that... yes. i do need to start applying for those jobs ><
i have two in process right now ... but neither of them going anywhere just yet *sigh*

i dunno if i'm too committed to the idea of working just yet.


anywho.

it's spring break time~~




hope everyone's having a relaxing break

school's started.
first week has passed... and we have 2 projects due already next week >.<
...give me my summer back. ^^

and so... i decide to procrastinate (like always)
updating journals and the like ^^ lol.
always tends to happen when u have the least amount of time, dont u think?

anywho...
contrary to my complaints, i actually am enjoying school.
school is enjoyable... especially compared to the real world we will be having to go out into after this year.
and i also find studying enjoyable these days.
actually gaining the knowledge i mean.
not the busy-work.
i'd like to not have a time limit, tho i know nuthin gets done without that time limit.
i like a laid back feeling-- like i have all the time in the world to explore.
that's a feeling that i think is coming back to me now that i'm back home.
and now, i think i just realized how... "on the go" everything was back in japan.
in the subways and everything... i kinda got the impression that people just couldnt wait the extra ten minutes to get on the next-- less crowded-- train.
taking a stroll today down berkeley (not that i had the time for a stroll... i was pretty much just walking to the hardware store) i felt a sense of slow time.
time taken a little bite at a time.  it was nice.
i think i especially felt this slow time when i went from tokyo to my mum's side of the family in wakayama.
strolling down by the ocean, i just felt time passing by so slowly. so peacefully.
school does break this rhythm tho.
esp leading the architecture student's life. lol.
even tho i really think that taking a day off to just walk and look around and "see" is probably one of the best education methods for the architecture student :d hehe
tho i think i might just be rationalizing for my want to do that right now-

i was using sesame oil today... for my project.
my whole room smells like sesame oil.

that and beads.
been stringing beads on wire.
my hands hurt. big time ><
and my project is starting to not make sense to me at all >.<
eep...

home sweet home.

actually... back in berkeley.
for my last year o.O
scaryyyyy.
i am a bit sad returning here knowing that it's my last year here... and that all my friends will be dispersing... spreading out into the world~ once the year is through.
i know it shouldn't be an end.  that's it's only a beginning.
and especially that i should not be having depressing thoughts like these at the beginning of the year
but yes.
it just hit me how old we are... i mean i guess we're still young n all, just ... old enough to be heading out to the real world *shiver*
friends starting to work... hearing bout friends getting married ... o geez.

anywho... berkeley was the same as i left it.
wurster was the same.

but the people were different.
i dont know any of the freshmen or the sophomores....
i barely knew the freshmen when i left (who are juniors now)
i dont know people in the architecture department!! >.<
eep!!
... remembering not to freak out. lol.

but yes... im back.
no internet at home yet.
getting internet at a cafe... and savoring the last little bit of summer that i have left.

SO im leaving tomorrow.

its hard to believe its been a year already.
a year and a two weeks or so, just to be specific ^^.

and everyone's just so damn warmly seein me off.
makes it hard to leave >.<

if i go home, everything might just turn out to be "just a dream"
... it just seems so unreal.